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  • July 4: A feeling I’ve never been

    Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Big things have happened since my last report! I had my first Zometa infusion on June 5 (which was a fucking shit show) and yesterday I met with my oncologist and a CT scan is in the works! No need to worry, this…

  • May 17: Planting hope (or an idea of hope)

    Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Another month down of oral chemo! My body is stabilizing, but fatigue is still kicking my ass. It makes me wonder how much of my fatigue is my body still recovering from chemo/radiation and how much is my new meds? Will I be…

  • April 10: Hot dogs n bone stuff

    Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Last month I was discharged from the radiation clinic! I don’t have any further business to conduct with them at this time. Yay me! Today I went in for another monthly injection and lab work. My oncologist is pleased with my labs. My…

  • March 19: Beware the ides of March.

    Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Yeah, yeah, yeah. It has been a minute. If you don’t already follow me elsewhere, you might have thought I was dead! Ha! I’m not dead YET! But my soul is tired. My body is tired. Oral chemo sucks and all the side…

  • February 21 – Day 365: One year later

    I have cancer. Fucking cancer. Fucking fuck fuck.  Fuck. I hope the more I say it and the more I type it, I can grab hold of the magnitude of that word. It feels so far away. None of the questions I have matter at this point in time. How this happened or why I…

  • February 13 – 20, Day 357 – 364: Oral chemo sucks.

    Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Last Monday I met with my oncologist and signed all the paperwork to start oral chemo. I took my first dose Tuesday morning. Since then things have been rough. Combine my side effects with seasonal PTSD of what occurred this time last year…

  • February 5 – 12, Day 349 – 356: Ten days of memories? Nightmares? Both?

    Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Tomorrow I have shit ton of appointments. In total, I have five appointments and four of those are at the cancer center. I will do labs, go over consent paperwork for the oral chemo, see my oncologist, and get injected with my hormone…

  • January 18 – February 4, Day 331 – 348: Exercises in forgiveness

    Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): I know it has been a hot minute since I have written a post. There hasn’t been much to report on other than I am just existing in the world and trying to figure myself out. I see the oncologist on February 13…

  • January 9 – 17, Day 323 – 330: What the fuck just happened???

    Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): All last week I was sick as fuck. COVID evolved into some sort of upper respiratory bacterial infection so I was out for the count. I met with my oncologist yesterday and got some long awaited answers, both good and bad. TO THE…

  • January 6, 7, & 8 – Day 320, 321, & 322: Anticlimactic ending to a terrible time anyways

    Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): It is day five of COVID. I thought I was getting better but I lost my smell and taste this morning. Where did it go? I don’t know. This week I have no appointments. I get a small break. Monday, January 16 I…