madisonhatescancer

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Yeah, yeah, yeah. It has been a minute. If you don’t already follow me elsewhere, you might have thought I was dead! Ha! I’m not dead YET! But my soul is tired. My body is tired. Oral chemo sucks and all the side…

I have cancer. Fucking cancer. Fucking fuck fuck.  Fuck. I hope the more I say it and the more I type it, I can grab hold of the magnitude of that word. It feels so far away. None of the questions I have matter at this point in time. How this happened or why I…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Last Monday I met with my oncologist and signed all the paperwork to start oral chemo. I took my first dose Tuesday morning. Since then things have been rough. Combine my side effects with seasonal PTSD of what occurred this time last year…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Tomorrow I have shit ton of appointments. In total, I have five appointments and four of those are at the cancer center. I will do labs, go over consent paperwork for the oral chemo, see my oncologist, and get injected with my hormone…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): I know it has been a hot minute since I have written a post. There hasn’t been much to report on other than I am just existing in the world and trying to figure myself out. I see the oncologist on February 13…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): All last week I was sick as fuck. COVID evolved into some sort of upper respiratory bacterial infection so I was out for the count. I met with my oncologist yesterday and got some long awaited answers, both good and bad. TO THE…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): It is day five of COVID. I thought I was getting better but I lost my smell and taste this morning. Where did it go? I don’t know. This week I have no appointments. I get a small break. Monday, January 16 I…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Although I am infected with COVID for the third time, I found out yesterday that I could finish radiation treatment on my spine because it is considered “special.” So yesterday I hauled my ass to radiation at 4 pm. Tomorrow is my last…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): I had my first radiation appointment today. It went pretty okay. It was boring as fuck. But now… my whole week is fucked up. Ya girl has the ‘vid again. TO THE SHORT VERSION! Sometimes things get so bad in life that you…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Tomorrow is day one of three spine radiation treatments. I will have radiation tomorrow, Wednesday, and Friday. Friday I will meet up with my non-assigned radiologist. Sandwiched between those treatments I will meet with my oncologist on Thursday along with labs and my…