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Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): It has been a long week and weekend, but I am finally on the mend from COVID. Today was the first day since last weekend that I have felt more like my cancer self. The combination of having a week off chemo and…

I think the universe hates me. Maybe I’ve done something in a past lifetime to deserve this fucked up karma or maybe in this lifetime. Maybe I killed too many boxelder bugs and ants and now I am being punished for being unkind to insects. I really hate boxelder bugs. For the second time in…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): This week was supposed to be my last week of chemo but guess who tested positive for COVID-19 this morning?! THIS BALD CANCER PATIENT. Rage is not a strong enough word for what I am experiencing. TO THE LONG VERSION! What do you…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Chemo #15 is complete. WE HAVE ONE CHEMO LEFT! ONE. JUST ONE. But the stomach shots seem to have no end. My numbers are still low, a testament to the compounding effects of chemo. I had my Zoladex shot today (hormone suppressant) and…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Tomorrow is my second to last chemo! This week is week 19 of chemotherapy and it will be my 15th treatment! It is the first time during treatment that I literally do not want to go to chemo tomorrow. I want to see…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Welcome to chemo week number 15! This is the first time I have felt that I might not make it to the end of treatment. I have two chemos left over the course of the next ten days. My fingers, feet, and various…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Chemo #14 is in the hole! We officially have TWO CHEMOS LEFT. Today’s chemo was full of weird little happenings. Oh and today is the day I get to share my surprise!! I guess you’ll have to read the full post to find…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Twas the eve of chemo number fourteen… One chemo closer to the end. After tomorrow, we just have two chemos left. I am in a constant state of feeling like shit. Chemo has worn me down. I am tired. My body is tired.…

I literally just spent the last hour and a half writing a blog post about self care that was SO good and it didn’t save. I am so fucking pissed right now. f u c k I will try again tomorrow. I have nothing left to give today.

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Chemo number 13 is in the books! THREE CHEMOS LEFT! The countdown feels so good but fuck I am going to be practically crawling at chemo on the last day haha! I have a growth factor injection tomorrow. My white blood cell count…