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Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Tomorrow is my last chemo infusion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HIT ME BABY ONE MORE TIME CARBO PLATINUM! TO THE SHORT VERSION! “You did it. Every day you showed up and did what you had to do to survive. That on its own is incredible. But doing…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): It has been a long week and weekend, but I am finally on the mend from COVID. Today was the first day since last weekend that I have felt more like my cancer self. The combination of having a week off chemo and…

I think the universe hates me. Maybe I’ve done something in a past lifetime to deserve this fucked up karma or maybe in this lifetime. Maybe I killed too many boxelder bugs and ants and now I am being punished for being unkind to insects. I really hate boxelder bugs. For the second time in…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): This week was supposed to be my last week of chemo but guess who tested positive for COVID-19 this morning?! THIS BALD CANCER PATIENT. Rage is not a strong enough word for what I am experiencing. TO THE LONG VERSION! What do you…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Chemo #15 is complete. WE HAVE ONE CHEMO LEFT! ONE. JUST ONE. But the stomach shots seem to have no end. My numbers are still low, a testament to the compounding effects of chemo. I had my Zoladex shot today (hormone suppressant) and…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Tomorrow is my second to last chemo! This week is week 19 of chemotherapy and it will be my 15th treatment! It is the first time during treatment that I literally do not want to go to chemo tomorrow. I want to see…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Welcome to chemo week number 15! This is the first time I have felt that I might not make it to the end of treatment. I have two chemos left over the course of the next ten days. My fingers, feet, and various…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Chemo #14 is in the hole! We officially have TWO CHEMOS LEFT. Today’s chemo was full of weird little happenings. Oh and today is the day I get to share my surprise!! I guess you’ll have to read the full post to find…

Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Twas the eve of chemo number fourteen… One chemo closer to the end. After tomorrow, we just have two chemos left. I am in a constant state of feeling like shit. Chemo has worn me down. I am tired. My body is tired.…

I literally just spent the last hour and a half writing a blog post about self care that was SO good and it didn’t save. I am so fucking pissed right now. f u c k I will try again tomorrow. I have nothing left to give today.