Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Today I have been super fatigued and felt really crummy. I’ve mostly slept and had barely enough energy to get a pedicure and buy some bland foods. I am two days post treatment.

ON TO THE SHORT VERSION!

Ludacris once asked, “How low can you go? How low can you go?” in his song “Get Low.” I am now asking myself that same question. I can go lower than I ever really thought I could. Will it get worse than this? I feel like I could sleep for days. My motivation is zero to none. My anxiety pills make it so I have no worries in my brain. I sometimes miss worrying. I feel like I need to worry about something but have no effort to do so. Is this what people who don’t have an anxiety disorder feel like???

Today and tomorrow are supposedly my lowest days, according to some of my breast cancer thriver friends. My oncologist said my lowest day could actually be a week out post-treatment. I really hope she is wrong. I cannot function in this state for a whole week. My appetite is zero to none. Today I thought about frijoles and I almost puked. PLEASE NO. NOT THE BEANS! I am pissed off at my brain for being upset about beans. I love beans.

Tomorrow is a new day. Maybe tomorrow I will have more to say. Oh! I did make an FAQ page. If you can provide feedback or additional questions you would like answers for, that would be great. I have chemo brain so I honestly don’t know what people are curious about anymore. I have lost my sense of curiosity temporarily. Baby come back! Lots of song references in my brain.

Today’s song lyric of the day is brought to you by Jetta.

“Crash fast, body hijack
Falling like an airplane
Full speed is more than enough
Slow it down, no I don’t fall”

– Take It Easy – Matstubs Remix, Jetta, Matstubs