Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): I ordered 100 additional “Fuck cancer! Enjoy rainbows!” stickers and they are finally on their way! If you’ve been wanting more, I will have more soon. Tomorrow is chemo number six! I have my labs at 7:30 am and start chemo by like 9 am. I hope they have good snacks to steal tomorrow. They haven’t had hummus and pretzels in FOREVER and I know I could buy my own hummus and pretzels, but it is more fun when I can steal them. Let’s manifest hummus and pretzels tomorrow and maybe some pancake ice cream.
TO THE SHORT VERSION!
Have you ever like cut your finger and then suddenly you learn the hard way that the cut is the biggest inconvenience in your life and you continually injure it? Like paper cuts. Always at the weirdest side angle on your index finger and suddenly you encounter five lemons in a day (where did all the lemons come from?!) and they invade your cut. Oh and then you hit your cut against the wall because you were talking with your hands. And then your cat bites you on your cut.
Now imagine that happening to ALL of my fucking finger nails. They all hurt (thanks chemo?) and I am suddenly weak in the hands and I am constantly aggravating the nails more because they KEEP HITTING THINGS. I have never hit my thumb nails more than in the past week. My nails ache!
I also have developed a weird rash all over my hands and on my arms. My hands look like I purposely fondled a poison ivy leaf. I definitely will be asking about this tomorrow because I use my hands a lot and I am now like Ricky Bobby and have no idea what to do with hands.
I didn’t make it to my goal of researching my new chemo drug for today’s blog. I guess now I have something fun to do for tomorrow’s blog. I need to get some sleep though! After tomorrow, only TEN CHEMOS LEFT!
TEN!
Today’s song lyric of the day is brought to you by Kid Cudi.
“Every time,
The moon shines I become alive, yeah
And every time,
The moon shines I become alive, yeah
I’m feeling strange in the night
I’m in myself I feel I’m thrown into a fight
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide nothin’s right
My skin is burning when my rock begins to speak
There’s something going wrong with me”
madisonhatescancer 
One response to “5/18 – Day 87: I’m not sure what to do with my hands”
oh my gosh i literally laughed out loud at work reading this! OMG where did all the lemons come from and your cat biting your in your cut omg i just cannot madison you crack me up. You are like a comedian who makes fun of their pain lol. its a compliment. you are hilarious. i love you madison
i hope your hands heal. poor tender fingers
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