Fast facts (if you don’t have time to read the full post): Tomorrow is my last chemo infusion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HIT ME BABY ONE MORE TIME CARBO PLATINUM!

TO THE SHORT VERSION!

“You did it. Every day you showed up and did what you had to do to survive. That on its own is incredible. But doing that on top of everything else you’ve accomplished is almost unbelievable. I am so proud of you friend. Next you have major surgery coming up and that’s going to suck too. A lot. But I believe in you. I know you’re going to keep showing up and doing what you have to do to be here. I’m sending you all my love fro the other side of this journey.”

An AYA breast cancer survivor

A friend I made early on in my diagnosis sent me that message today on Instagram. We have never met, but she has watched me endure my journey and even went to the charity art fundraiser! I love making friends. It left me in tears because it is literally an active choice every single damn day to show up to survive chemo. Being poisoned is hard. This shit is fucking awful. Sometimes I pretend that chemo is cool and fun with all the facts I learn and people I meet but this shit is destroying my body trying to destroy cancer. I am glad it is ending and I am glad that when I touch my breast it is hard for me to find the tumor now. Can’t wait to see the progress when I get my scans done! *cue scanxiety*

The goodie bags are packed. The boobie cupcakes are frosted. The chemo bag is stuffed full of every single party pod banner I’ve ever hung. Destination chemo finito!

Today’s song lyrics of the day are brought to you by Britney Spears.

“My loneliness is killing me (and I)
I must confess I still believe (still believe)
When I’m not with you I lose my mind
Give me a sign
Hit me baby one more time”

– …Baby One More Time, Britney Spears